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Talk about vanity >.>

March 13, 2007

Last Saturday was my birthday. Wee… and therefore that means a new layout is needed. Honestly, I feel uneasy with the new skin because my face is so right there… I found that picture lying around with my other stuff… I was a bit inspired by it because of the candle. It reminds me of birthday candles so I thought of the layout’s theme. Me. Bwuahahahah. Yuck ang vain.

My family and I heard mass at 6:30, ate breakfast at Jollibee and ate lunch at Moomba. Moomba is a Mediterranean bar and resto found in Quezon City which specializes at serving ostriches. Sad to say, I didn’t like the taste of ostrich. I rather eat my birthday cake… and that’s what I did when we arrived at home. I devoured it. I was also surprised at my cake… it had a design of a blue green fairy… really reminds me of our class play.
I had two gifts for myself… one is…

Yay. Finally, Level 99 na sya. I plan to laze around in Midgard a bit more before going to the Valkyrie.

And the second one, since my lola gave me cash as a gift, I plan to buy myself a new place. Sana matuloy talaga. Then after that, I plan to get a life.

That day was a bit sad… True, some were able to greet me but… I dunno. Ever felt that someone greeted you for the sake of saying that “I didn’t forget your birthday so don’t get the hell mad at me” ? Sucky, right? I dunno, daig pa sya ng automated email galing sa mga forums at birthday alarms. Daig pa sya ng mga tao na ngayon ko lang nakilala… mas may paki at mas sincere pa sila. Oh well, why am I expecting much? After all, it’s only someone that takes me for granted. Bahala na… Nakakadepress lang kasi.

Speaking of new people, I joined a Pinoy Otaku forum…

I don’t usually join forums that much asides from the ones made by the people I personally know but I found this one quite interesting. Right now, they’re recruiting members and if anyone is interested, you can just drop by and register. Gogogo, when they reach 250 members, they might possibly make me an admin. Weee.


Belated Happy 3rd Month Blog

March 7, 2007

Well exams are finally over. I kinda felt sad because it was our last one ever for the whole high school. I felt even sadder because later on I found out that I’ve failed on most of them. I’m even worried about my grades… So far I found out that I went two steps down in Filipino [from 1.25 to 1.75] and one step down in Chemistry [from 2.00 to 2.25].

Ever believe in karma? I do… If you remember in my previous post, I loved isaw too late due to my family’s hereditary problem in high blood pressure. Well basically, we were sorta forbidden from eating anything high in cholesterol… Fats, chicken skin, laman loob, squid, shellfish… Then I decided to sneak out and be a little disobedient brat and bought lugaw isaw from a lugawan on the next block. As I was eating in front of the computer, I accidentally spilled lugaw on the keyboard. Now, the numbers, some function keys, delete, home, end, page up, page down, ctrl and alt buttons do not work [Thank goodness for num lock and an extra set of ctrl and alt]. So now… it’s terribly sad. My keyboard is so deffective. Moral lesson: Listen to your parents… they know what’s good for you.

I’m really pissed off!

February 22, 2007

Dapat dati pa ako gumawa ng sariling post tungkol dito, pero dahil nakakatamad magpost at meron na nauna sa akin, post ko na lang ang gawa nya.



Pisay vs. Bandila
I really have to say that ABS-CBN’s show, BANDILA, is getting over the nerves of many people in the Pisay community. There have been a number of episodes where the show has marked this school as a breeder of technically-competent barbarians. They say that the government’s investment on Pisay scholars is a waste. What does this mean?

What might be the reason of ABS-CBN’s outrage against the school? There has been one particular event in the past that may have been the cause of this dilemma. This was the poisoning that occurred last year. ABS-CBN’s struggle to cover the news was a distress for them since many students refused to talk about the issue. Didn’t the students follow ethics? It’s the school’s integrity at stake. The students just wanted to keep the news private since it would greatly affect the honor of the school.

What does this channel really want to show the people? Pisay has been sending complaints against the said TV program beacuse they have striked the school for so many times already.

So… For those people out there who believe in the non-sense they publish on television, learn to find the facts. Their only objective is to make money out of the lies they have been telling the public.


So ayun. Inis na inis talaga ako sa ABS-CBN ngayon–mga mukhang pera at walang respeto sa mga taong gustong manahimik. Ayokong mag-generalize but they’ve really gone too far with this issue.

Kasalanan ko ba na mabagal kayo?

January 28, 2007

Unang plato… wala lang. Mukhang bading o manyak lang ang lalaki. Pangalawang plato ay ginawa dahil nainspire sa series na Princess Tutu. Pangatlong plato, naisip kong maglagay ng ibang tenga kaya nagmukha na syang tupa.

Ayun. Wala na ako sa mood na magreklamo, magwala at magalit ngayon kasi sumaya ako kanina… somehow. Nainis ako kasi nung kahapon, MAGIC! nadelete sa PC ko halos lahat ng mga 356 plates mula January 9-28! Kainis! Buti naman na nandito na yung pang January 28 ko at na-upload ko na sa Flickr ang ibang mga larawan. Hay. Di ko talaga alam kung paano sila nawala. Pero syempre, nung nalaman ko na nawala ang mga larawan na iyon, inisip ko kung nadelete rin yung mga pictures ng crush friends ko. Buti nandun pa… kumpleto. Pero sana talaga nawala yung mga litrato ng crush ko kasi…wala lang. Gusto ko na syang makalimutan kahit papaano. Pero ayaw ko talaga idelete mga yun eh. Sobrang may sentimental value sila… cute rin sya sa mga pics.

Okay. Bangag. Bangag post nga ito. At least mas maganda ang isang bangag post kaysa sa isang emo-suicidal post nanaman. Papakilala ko sana ang bagong best friend ko. Si kutsilyo. Mabait sya. Super talas. Kinis ng balat. Payat. Sharp personality. Shiny…mayaman siguro. Mahilig tumambay sa kusina. Mahilig tumulong sa pagluto. And best of all, kung may kaaway ka, sya na bahala sa taong yun. O di ba! Pwedeng-pwede. Ingatan mo lang sya kundi, magtataksil sya sa iyo. Aray. Masakit yun. Sayang… di sya pwedeng isama sa slumber parties at sa mga gimikan. Maraming natatakot sa kanya. Sayang rin… pwede sana syang personal bodyguard. Pero ngayon, ayoko na sa kanya. Break na kami.

Yun lang ata. Naiinis lang nanaman ako kasi sinayang ko nanaman ang isang pagkakataon. Ger. Bilang na talaga ang mga araw.

New digicam! Yay!

January 27, 2007

My mom asked me to join a raffle by Sky Cable and HBO last December 27. I was too lazy to email Sky Cable at first because I was too busy playing O2 Jam and the newspaper didn’t say what the prize was. I thought that it would just be some gift bags or something. The question was plainly easy… What is the blockbuster hit would be previewed at blah, blah, blah. And of course, the answer was found at the very ad of the newspaper. So I just thought that the prize would just be plain cheap because of that question.

Imagine my surprise when my mom told me last Thursday that we won a digicam. She claimed the prize on the next day. Imagine my higher level of surprise when I found out that it was a Sony DSC-N2! It has the touchscreen feature. You could also edit the pictures on the cam itself and it can do slideshows with music! Wicked cool. And asides from that, we also won a Sony picture printer!

Grabe! I’ve been showered with too much blessings already. First, I found out that I passed the UPCAT and ACET. Next, I have no failing grade for this quarter. Third, the Photoshop CS2 and the new digicam! Oh well. God is really cheering me up with these wonderful gifts! Masyado atang depressed at suicidal ang bata na to. Pagbigyan ko kaya sya ngayon.

I’m also thankful for some of my friends for cheering me up and listening to my problems. Yung iba kasi dyan, nakikita na bad mood na ako, magagalit pa sa akin kasi sinisira ko mood nya at ng kasama nya dahil sa presence ko. Syet. Some friend you are. Mas mahalaga pala ang magpaimpress sa ibang tao kaysa isipin kung anong nangyayari sa kaibigan mo. Akala ko ba I’ll always be there when you need me. Sheesh. Gago. Muntik na. May dala pa naman akong cutter nun. Hahah. Ayun, mas lalo na ako napaiyak. Haller. Ano kaya yan. Napakasuicidal talaga… kundi lang ako natatakot sa dugo eh! (Di ako takot sa dugo, takot lang ako manaksak ng tao) Anyways…

So here are the other Fayrie plates. I was too sleepy to do the Nature one. There were a lot of brushes for the Nature but I couldn’t decide what to use because they don’t really mix-and-match that well together. I also had a hard time with her because her clothes are too complicated that’s why I decided to hide her sides with her hair. I like the Fire one… it’s my favorite photoshopped fayrie but I like original drawing of the Sky.

Wow. Flattered ako. May mga tao pala na nagaappreciate sa mga gawa ko. Di naman ako gumagawa ng mga ganito kasi magaling ako magphotoshop o magdrawing. Haller… di ko nga kaya gumuhit ng matinong paa at kamay at di pantay-pantay ang sukat ng mga katawan na ginagawa ko. At kung magaling nga ako, dapat nag Philippine High School for the Arts na lang ako at nag Fine Arts para sa kolehiyo. Ginagawa ko lang ang “356 Plates” kasi gusto kong ipakita na kaya kong gumawa ng bagay na tuloy-tuloy hanggang sa huli… na kaya kong ipatupad ang mga sinasabi ko (356 na larawan sa isang taon). Gusto kong ipakita na dedicated ako sa mga gawain ko. Gusto kong ipakita na matiyaga rin ako kahit papaano. Haha. So ayun.

At dahil sa katamaran at ang napakafanet na internet connection, ngayon ko lang ipopost ang listahan ng UP Oblation Runners Scholars ng PSHS.

1.Alcantara, Kristine Ray
2. Averilla, Paul Stephen
3. Balabat, Loujane
4. Chan, Katrina
5. David, Rustico
6. De Jesus, Mark Jason
7.Garcia, Virgil Gabriel
8. Gonzales, Kevin
9.Lacsamana, Ian Paulo
10 Lopez, Ben Anthony
11. Macasieb, Juan Antonio
12. Magnaye, Maisie
13. Magno, Jose Pedrito
14. Magtibay, Ryan Joseph
15. Mendoza, Marie Jo-Anne
16. Marfil, Ramon Inigo
17. Miranda, Neil Jon Louie
18. Morado, Katrina Jessica
19. Munar, Johanna
20. Nagpala, Lovely Angelica
21. Reamillo, John Gerald
22. Roque, Rob Brian
23. Sagayaga, Hope
24. Santos, Edrick John
25. Seviila, Mithi
26. Verzosa, Grazielle

Congrats sa inyo!

Stress starts with STR

January 19, 2007

^quote from Jessica Balaquit. We were finally able to set up our STR posters at the ASTB. Yay!

First plate’s background shows different subjects that a normal HS sudent would take up: the clock symbolizes Physics; the butterfly, Biology; the bubbles, Chemistry; the words at the lower lefy, English; the equations, (obviously) Math; and the words on the right, Computer Science. The second plate was supposed to be a “hot guy” according to Tin Pascual but I decided to toy with it so now, he’s a “hot gay”. Bishounen is Japanese for a cute or good looking guy.

Well, I am relatively happy today… but there’s a little thing that I’ve realized…

(1)If an opportunity comes, seize it or you might regret it… (2)walang hiyaan na dapat to (3) kasi bilang na mga araw mo.
Ignore it if you don’t know what it means but if you’re an avid reader of the blog, you’ll know that I’ve been ranting about this ever since Christmas break.
We barely did anything today… Our schedule was shortened to make way for the YMSAT week. It was dragging only for the math long quiz. I didn’t know what to do. In ComSci, we’re already learning about PHP! Yay! Even though I don’t really know what’s it all about, it sounds pretty cool if you know how to do that language. Wala lang.
I just watched the badgerbadger thing— the one that the AdProg people of Photon were rambling about. I spent 5 minutes watching the clip. It’s pointless yet cute. Oh well, I’m too sleepy. Good night to all!
Badger, badger, badger. Mushroom. Badger, badger, badger. Mushroom. Badger, badger, badger. SNAKE!

For the Harry Potter version…
Potter, potter, potter. Weasley. Potter, potter, potter. Weasley. Potter, potter, potter. SNAPE!

Gusto ko ng kausap

January 15, 2007

First plate was inspired by second and third year days in Computer Science where we took up C++ and Java programming language. Second plate’s original drawing was supposed to be a prince with a weird sense of fashion but since I was too lazy to color in the details, the end result looked like he was a guy in rags or something. Third plate, according to Tin P, was emo. Nah. She’s just heart broken. I was too lazy to clean the drawing so it looks a bit messy. But I like the drawing a lot. Really matches my emotions… and it’s purple!

Ngayon, nagkakram ako ng Science and Technology Research poster para sa Youth Math, Science and Technology Week para sa susunod na linggo (Yak, pinahaba pa… pwede naman STR or YMSAT)

Anyways, emo raw ako ngayon. Sus. Bakit ngayon lang nila napapansin? Hahah, baka kasi labasan na ng grades. Syet, sobra ang binaba ko this quarter. Chemistry, Math, COM SCI. BAKIT?! Ganun ba ako kabano mag Java Script. Cmon. Nakakaiyak naman. Di ko nga alam kung paano ko ipapaliwanag sa mga magulang ko ang nangyayari na buhay ko. Wala naman akong bagsak ngayon 4th year pero pababa ng pababa naman mga marka ko. Ayoko na… gusto ko na matapos ang lahat para wala na akong problema sa buhay.

Hay nako. Buhay… parang life.

Nakabili na ako ng CD ng Dekada 70. Papanoorin ko bukas para matapos ko na ang papel na yan… kahit sa Pebrero pa siya kailangan ipasa. Grabe, 2 buwan na lang ang natitira at isa na akong gradyuweyt. Wala lang. Ayoko pa matapos ang lahat. At syempre, kinontra ko nanaman ang sarili ko.

Binasa ko ang mga nakaraan kong mga blog entries. Aayusin ko lang para sa iba… di ako galit o naiinis sa pangkat ko. Sinasabi ko dati na ayaw ko sa pangkat ko ngunit nung pinag-isipan ko talaga ito, naisip ko na wala naman akong kagalit sa kanila. Oo nga na naiilang ako sa iba sa kanila kasi mga grade-conscious o kaya’t seryoso o kaya’t sobrang pasaway o mga may sari-sarili silang mga mundo pero hanggang doon lang. Parang wala kasi akong ibang masisi kundi sila kung bakit ako nagkakaganito ngayon. Dinadamay ko lang sila kahit ang utak kong sira ang nag-iisip ng kung anu-ano tungkol sa kanila. Hay nako. Ayoko na talaga. Wala na akong makausap tungkol dito… kahit gusto kong may makalaman tungkol sa mga problema ko sa buhay. Nakakasama raw sa isang tao kung tinatago lang ang mga problema. Pero wala eh. Walang makakaintindi kung bakit ako ganito, ganyan at ganoon. Gusto ko ng kausap pero lahat sila abala sa mga mas mahahalagang gawain tulad nga ng STR.

Hay nako. Drama. Drama. Drama.

Sige na nga at titigil na ako dito. Nagiging pasaway na kagrupo nanaman ako O.O

Oo nga pala! Ang 356 plates ay may Flickr account ngayon. Dalawin nyo ang proyektong 356 plates at magcomment rin kayo! Pero ilalagay ko pa rin dito sa aking blog ang mga bagong gawang larawan bago ko i-upload sa Flickr ko. Yun lang po. Salamat ^_^

Sleepless and Loveless

January 14, 2007

First plate, theme inspired by the song “Bride in Dream” in O2 jam. Second plate, inspired to draw an oriental-medieval princess.

Up until yesterday, I’ve been sleep-deprived since Tuesday. Well, on the first day of my sleepless marathon may seem pretty much pointless for others. I spent the whole Tuesday night/ Wednesday early morning watching a whole anime mini-series entitled Loveless (hah! akala nyo kung anong ibig sabihin ng title no!).
The story goes like this (from Wikipedia). On his first day at his new school, 12-year old Ritsuka Aoyagi meets a mysterious 20-year old man named Sobi Agatsuma. He claims to be a good friend of Ritsuka’s brother, Seimei, who was recently murdered, and the suspicious organization called ‘Septimal Moon’ may be responsible for the death. As Ritsuka quickly finds out, Seimei and Sobi acted as a pair involved in spell battles. Now Soubi is Ritsuka’s fighter, and Ritsuka is his ‘sacrifice’. Together, they challenge the organization to find out the truth behind Seimei’s death and the reason for Ritsuka’s amnesia.

Well, I don’t recommend this for conservative people as this series is a shounen-ai (boy-to-boy relationship) and a shotacon (guy pedophilia). I think may pagka R-17 to. Ahihi. This is what Kit got me for the exchange gift asides from the Gravitation series. Oh well, what do you expect me to receive. Haha. Joke lang Kit. But I really enjoyed the series a lot. However I felt a bit cut short from the ending. Something looks missing and not everything is explained. If you guys are interested, you can but the DVD from Comic Alley but you have to ask the sales person first since you won’t find it at once at the display set.

So that’s it for that day. On Wednesday night/ Thursday early morning was a cramming night, Thursday night/ Friday early morning was our Pinoy overnight and Friday night/ Saturday early morning was the Pyro Olympics night. I was able to catch some rest for the whole Saturday and Sunday. Actually, I think I overdid it. Gah. Why do teachers have to give so much requirements!? Porket akala nila new year at wala RAW masyadong ginagawa mga tao. Oh well. That’s life. We have to accept whatever life gives us. Diskarte lang natin yun kung paano natin aayusin/gagawing matino buhay natin kapag may kasamang problema. For me, I’d like to do what Ms. Carmella says, “Have a stress-free weekend” if that is truly possible for a Pisay student.

Rant. rant. rant

January 10, 2007

As I write this post, it is the 11th day of January… year 2007.

Here’s my second plate. It started off as a pretty neat drawing– pure tech pen, no pencil, no draft and no colored pencils but as I was adding color through photoshop, I didn’t like the end result so I decide to toy around with the filters and this is what came out. It’s a bit ugly in the normal blog view but I like it when it’s in its original size.

I was inspired because of lack of inspiration. Contradicting? Not really… I just feel empty and broken (hearted… haha) and I don’t feel exited anymore. I have nothing to motivate me to do something productive. Gah. That is why I name this plate, Seasons of Pain… my fourth year life was such a pain in the ass so completely wasted since I’ve been crying out pointless pains for almost 7 months now. I just can’t get over my problem. I just can’t let it all go. I hate it!

Argh. I’m like this today because I just found out that I’m at the edge in failing viscomm and econ. Hahah. But that’s okay, I can manage it.

Right now I’m at AJ’s house in Taytay, Rizal doing our Filipino project (gameboard) which is due tomorrow. Yay! Overnightness… I have no plans on sleeping though. I’m going to drown myself in coffee later on. I do hope we finish in time.

And this means that I’ll be posting my 3rd plate on Friday. Watch out for it!

What I’d give up…

December 3, 2006

^Viscomm plate for photo collage. Click to get the full view. It’s actually the 360 view of my living room. I was inspired by the one that the Viscomm o6 did last year. They did a 360 view of Pisay from the SHB rooftop. It was posted outside the library last year. That plate was one of the reasons why I decided to try out that elective. I really loved that collage.

I really don’t know why I just decided to put this up right now (Well, asides from the fact that I just made this blog) but I really regret not being able to join the Paskorus. I was really discouraged to continue when one of my classmates told a few people that Photon was sintunado. Oh great. I bet that he was talking about me. I was afraid to continue to join because I had this feeling that I may screw things up then the people will go and say things behind my back. I know that I’m a bit exaggerating but these things do really happen. As a matter in fact, when Photon was practicing one time, I was extremely tired from PE so I had to lip sing the song from time to time to let myself rest. Then when I found myself a-OK, I tried singing for real. Then after a few seconds, I was then being scolded that my voice was too high and if not that, it was out of tune. Gah. That was really degrading. That’s why I decided to quit.

I really want to sing. I love music a lot. I wish that I had a good singing voice. I wish I pursued the voice lessons I had last Grade 3 and 4. If I could, I would give up my interests and abilities in art just to be able to sing well. I really think that if I could sing well, it can help build up my self-confidence… I dunno. I think of it this way because people would stop scolding or laughing at you and start praising you. Exaggeration part 2. But this is how I really see things… it’s so shallow 😦

Maybe sometime in the future, I can find a way to improve my voice– take lessons again or so. But if I don’t succeed in that, maybe it’s just God’s way of saying that there are other things that I should take care of. But I really, really want to sing. It just feels happy.

Maybe I just need to stop listening to others for a change… but won’t that be also foolish? Just avoiding myself from finding out the truth? Gah. I’m completely confused right now. I need to sleep. It’s the end of the 4-day weekend.

Good night world! May CAT bukas!